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Friday, October 15 Actually this entry is for yesterday & the day before.oh n nt 4getting 2day.i was too tired to write it last night or in the morning when I woke up 4 sahur.haha.yay.it’s the fasting month already.1 month of me not being able to get close 2 julz.hehe.ill make it.did it last year.my will is strong.lol.yeah ryte.im home now,theres winnie the pooh on kids central.used 2 love watching it as a kid. But now im writing this & listening 2 music while the teles’s watchin me.lol.tele konon.skool was ok.finally got 2 do the filming 4 my final year project.stupid teacher,act like she noes so much wen in actual fact she doznt noe a ting.im workin 2day & itll b the 1st time breaking fast at work.2 bad julz aint workin 2day.kinda thirsty now.lol..control..control..controoooolllll…..
- Wed 13 Oct
It was an ok day till my baby & I went 2 mac 4 our luch.we had a 2 hour lunch due 2 a poly talk earlier.lol in the middle of eating I actually went 2 the toilet.cudnt stand it.had 2 throw the "big one".lol.we continued our lunch outside kfc near the fountain tingy at SP (Singapore Post).saw my ol fren sabariah.dats when it all started.julz ask if she cud read my old journal.the journal dat I wrote solely for nurul.i answered with the most stupidest ans.. "im not ready".it broke her apart.i mean I wud 2 if the person I was so in love with said dat 2 me.i regreted saying dat,I used the wrong word cuz it wasn’t wat I meant.its just dat I dun 1 her 2 feel uncomfortable or be reminded of my past wit nurul & it wasn’t an ugly past 1 till the coming end.y wud I 1 2 share wit julz 1 of my happy moments in life with another girl.its not right,its weird & heratbreaking.in life somethings arent meant 2 be known no matter how curious u r.i dun 1 2 dwell on the past.i want now.us.the present.im happy wit it & I bet I will 4 years 2 come.yes of course she was part of my greatest moments in life,heck she was the reason.but great moments move on just like great songs & great leaders.im more happy then all my past happy moments combined 2gether.dats how much u make me happy baby.my princes.my saviour.
- Thurs 14 Oct
No school but I had 2 go 2 school cuz I had 2 photo taking sessions.class & 4 SC.dun really care 4 the class 1.lol.Zur was very VERY sweet 2 bring yan,dillah,,hazman & I 2 mc at lucky plaze.she gave us a treat.it was a great feast.thank you zur.loye ya!I went 2 meet julz afterwards at city hall.itz been a long time since we sat at singapore river.so I decided 2 spend time wit her there dat day.it was a bit sucky at first wen she arrived cuz she was tired & sleepy & she had this sucky mood & wen she has this sucky mood,boy oh boy am I in 4 a treat.lol.but it was worth makin her smile & laugh.best present any1 can ever give me…….well maybe except 4 a gibson les paul guitar which costs 3000 smackeruz!!lol…..nahz.id still prefer juz lookin at her smile & laughter.we settled the problem bout the journal thing.im releived we did.hope she understands.ii nneva wanna lose her.we went 2 mc 2 get a drink but in the end we got ourselves the grilled burger thing.man im growing fat wit alll the consumption of mc nenel.lol.we sat back at sg river & there was this auntie dat sold flowers & tissue.she actuallly approached us 2 sell the tissue.oo I was wondering if she sold the roses cuz I actualy wantd 2 buy them 4 julz.i sat up & went 2 her but the roses were way too expensive & it din smell nice.ima very fussy person.so I went back 2 sit & she came back askin us 2 buy the roses.she reduced the price till 2 bucks.we din have change & after quite sometime "debatinng" over buying it or nt she gave us the rose & said 2 julz "lu baik lahh lu" man did I feel bad.guilty.its just not me 2 buy stuff from ppl.I dun easily trust ppl 2 well.julz dug in her bag some more 2 find loose change 2 give the auntie & she had some.but when we tried 2 find the auntie she disappeared.she vanished just like dat.i felt like I was in a movie where theres always a vanishing old lady.hehe.hehe.after dat we kissed & made out 4 awhile b4 going home. She made me laff so much in the train with her stupid behaviour.so cute.yet so "selenger".we reachd sengkang so fast.i din 1 the day 2 end. i had fun.always do when shes around me..wish it cud have gone on n on….
"times not with us,i used 2 call it my enemy.the night sky rushes, the mornings are long.
But it was a matter of time when i met you, so i thank time 4 bringing us together.
precious time we spent together. patient time i waited 4 you like that song
Time will lead us, well slowly dance in that imaginary hall as others indulge in liquor"
||my heart.bled||2:44 PM
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