my conciliatory to fallacy

my diffident.self

name- does it matter.honestly?
year- 29091986
location- land of broken hearts.
& shattered souls
music- punk rock.hardcore.emo.metalcore.
emocore.pop.jazz.oldies like Ritchie Valens
contact- emokills187@hotmail.com
screenname- emokills

"im just a kid sacrifices made will i get anything out from it?maybe one fine day.it's all bottled up inside it's been awhile.
even as the world sharpens beneath me i'll just pretend & smile.but it doesn't matter cuz i won't been missed i'll just leave a letter"

memory.lane
a day@CreativeCenter
date.movie
friday.night fever
cycling
new year.morning
new year05/06
christmas05'
LaoPaSat
melaniemurders2nd gig.the.discordant project
2yr.anniversary
my babys.birthday
suntec.summit2
suntec.summit
breaking fast.ite-mp
julz being....errr...julz <3
ripples pub.mr&miss
my happiest.& only 19th birthday
nokia.starlight cinema
ite simei.classmates
100905
memories of you.will never.fade away.
melanie murders first.gig
people.in my life
bay beats o4'

setting my wings.ablaze

Sunday, August 14

"jump!!jump!!jump!!can u see the light behind me??".im listening to a bullet for my valentine-just another star.nice song.anw im werking latr so i tot id update ma blog.yesterday was a blast.went 4 the 4PM meeting.it was ok.but i was so nervous seh.haha.then went to jam.jamming was fun except regret using aidils mic cuz it was all too bassy & shit.shud have used mine.but it was kewl.didnt go to the gig at mica yez cuz went to lepak with zur,irwin,ain,hazman.iman,aidil & ana joined us later cuz they went gaming after jamming.it was so farney playing stupid games that make u look dumb.i was so stressed out at first.so many thoughts of her.kept smoking like shit.one after another.but im glad i had fun.i missed chilling out with them.hope to do it again.arrghhh.i miss ite mp.i miss the ol times.i miss her.damn.im shaking again.i need to smoke i think.we lepaked,laffed & took pictures till late.1140 or so.we were so kanchong that we might not have buses or trains home.but it was well worth it.long time i never kecoh like that.felt dizzy & wanted to vommit wen i gt home.lots of smoke & bus rides dun go well together.got home.rested & talked to ika till 630am.like wow.drank 2 cups of coffee seh.i drank one in the morning & still i cudnt control my eyes.coffee aint werking fer me.it never has.but wat the heck.i like the taste.haha.im so confused ryte now.i dun wanna hurt her.but enjoy having her for company.things are so complicated ryte now.i wish i cud close my eyes & transport into my own haven..

"ill pollute the air with my thoughts,
as memories of you i share,
watching the ashes burn,
reminds me of the fire we once had,
the passion that didnt die as fast as this fire,
but as the wind blows through,
reality burns me with the shock,
that these lights might one day go off,
holding ciggarettes in my hand,
hoping that it'll last & not fade away,
but like the wind,
it'll sweep pass you by & kill the flame.

||my heart.bled||3:08 PM