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Wednesday, August 10 "a year has passed, the seasons go"
im crying now.its been such a long time since i wrote here.yesterday was magical.& it was the last most magical night il have with her.time will tell & only fate will decide to bring us together again.i miss her already.i cant stop crying.my tears are like rain drops in the most worst storm in the century.we sat where we first started our 1yr 8months & 9days of the most beautiful love story, that ive been privelaged to be one of the main actors in.beside her.we sat there till 130am or so.& ill never 4get singapore river.ill always think of her whenever i pass that place or even go near it.im so grateful that ive got a chance to meet her.the only person who really understood me,who really for once listened to me & the only person i opened up so much to.theres not one person i opened up to other then her.heck i dun even tell myself the things i tell her.she gave me hope.she gave me everything i never had.she gave me life.im lost for words.this is hard cuz its the first time that im ending a realtionship & im not angry or frustrated or i feel betrayed.im sad.heartbroken.lost all meaning to live.im shaking.ive lost control over my body.its so hard to type this.ive kept stoping & typing,stoping & typing.memories are lingering in my head.the fun,innocent,funny times we had.so irreplacable.her dorkyness.her smile.......ill miss that.tinking bout that makes me cry even more.her smile that lights up my shadowy days.that smile was my saviour.my prescription to my lonely symptoms.my pillars for heavy boulders.the single thread that differentiates heaven & the reality of this world.my swan princess.my love.my life.ill never forget her.ill never forget us.i thank her.sincerely from the bottom of my heart.for letting me be the happiest man in the world.even if it was for a period of time.ill never forget that.she was..is the best ill ever have.our song that started it all.& hopefully one day will bring us together again....
-"Kissing A Fool"
You Are Far
When i could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death, and from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough
To even make a start
But you'll never find
Peace of mind,
Til you listen to your heart
People
You can never change the way they feet
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew i loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through
Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and ties
So goodbye
But please don't take my heart
You are far
I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart
Maybe i'll be strong enough
I don't know where to start
But i'll never find
Peace of mind
While i listen to my heart
People
You can never change the way they feel
Better let them do just what they will,
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart
And people
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew i loved you
We could have shown them all
But remember this
Every other kiss
That you ever give
Long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man
One you really can surrender with
I will wait for you
Like i always do
There's something there
That can't compare with any other
You are far
When i could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death, and from my heart
Strange that i was wrong enough
To think you'd love me too
I guess you were kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool
||my heart.bled||2:25 PM
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