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Saturday, March 24 i don't know what to say or what to do.or shud i say what "not" to do.but i gez sum ppl are right.i can't rely too much on what i want.i can't have high hopes.it sucks to kinda feel that what they say is true.that having high hopes wunt get you anywhere or give you anything other then pain & misery when you don't get it.but i just can't help then to hope.to have it all back.the beautiful moments.the laughter.the feeling of all the warm & fuzzy unexplainable things that go thru my stomach.the sigh of relief when im in the bus thinking of how grateful life can be.as much as i dun like listening to ppls advice i cant help but to think that what they say makes sense.but...at the same time.y?y cant one have high hopes?y izit wrong?but at the same time.y izit so heart wrenching??y izit so painful?i yearn for love.i try so hard.how do those guys who don't even bother & take it for granted get so much affection??.what special powers do they posses?.... i still can't beleive whats happened.but i gez all i can do now is wait & let things go by naturally. a month ago.things were goin so well 
 
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