Sunday, October 24 im still awake.have been since juz now.played my electric guitar wit headphones on.i dun wanna get killed by my neighbours nor mom.sheesh.i may be dumb but not stupid.haiz.kinda tired now cuz I juz finished pooping.hehe.muz have been the kfc tom yam chicken frm buka juz now wit julz.hehe.we ate at ang mo kio.weird place 2 go on a sat.well we were from sembawang 2 take my baju kurung.so…wat the heck.she suggested it.neva been there 2gether so y nt.kinda nice with the whole after rain,wet floor,slight drizzling atmosphere.hehe.so emo.so I like.hehe."im singin in the drizzle!!im singing in the drizzle!".hehe.wow latest breaking news.im typing this witout listening 2 music.i have juz sinned!!wow.no wonder I have no inspiration.dat sucks.well.life has 2 move on.ok.im talking crap now.well I do everytime but im starting 2 do so at my blog n dats not a good ting.....y?....cuz it isnt u ass!!...oh shit.im talking 2 myself again……???…wait..if I wite this blog.well..A blog..doznt dat mean I HAVE 2 talk 2 myself?dat meaning its tootally ok 2 talk 2 myself..yeah.its written in the unwritten book of "talking 2 yourself while writing a blog"..so I dun seem insane at all..wow.m I smart or wat!!..oh wait..i just remebered somewhere up there I wrote dat I was dumb...damn… ||my heart.bled||3:26 AM

Monday, October 18 im up from sahur.was suppose 2 talk wit julz but she din wake up.she was still aslp wen i called.din wanna disturb her beauty sleep.she needs it 2 be all pretty 4 me..hehe.no shame at all.thers nothing on tv except days of our lives.wen in the blue hell will this show end i will not know.haha.im listenin 2 "My Chemical Romance's, Cemetery Drive".very kewl drums.went out wit julz on sat.was suppose 2 go out wit huda & gang but my baby had no plans.cudnt juz let her hav no plans.we went out 2 orchard n broke fast at takas mc.saw 1 of the sg idols dat got in 2 the top 15 ting but hes out a long time ago.very good looking stud.n i mean very.4got his name lah.we then proceeded 2 bazaar geylang.not dat packed but definately it will be in a few days time.we bought ourselves "ayam percik", "ayam madu" & my all time favourite "deng deng".lol there was this 1 stall who advertised his deng deng in a funny way."deng deygay deng deng!!" haha.hilarious.we stumbled across ridwan.nice haircut.looks pretty much the same except 4 the hair.he seemed very nervous.so was i.it was those akward moments.ya noe.wen u see a fren n u have no idea wat 2 say or wat 2 ask n ur just standing all smiley n stuff.lol.i hate wen that happens.luckily julz was bein a "makcik kepo" hehehe..went 2 werk yez.dillah was sweet enuff 2 bring 4 hazman & i nasi goreng dat she cooked.thanxx a mill lohan!.haha.work was very relaxing.i had not much 2 do cuz i had no stock 2 do n i was working in the store room.juz tidied here n there.did alot n i mean ALOT of dancing in there..haha.yes i danced all by myslef like a stupid idiot in the store room.lol.luckily now its a must 2 close the store room door.haha.i can dance all 2 my private self....???suddenly i just noticed dat sounds all wrong......lol.... back home, off the run, singing songs that make you slit your wrist, it isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun, so i won't stop dying, won't stop lying, if you want i'll keep on crying did you get what you deserve? is this what you always want me for? i miss you, i miss you so far and the collision of your kiss that made it so hard - Cemetery Drive by My Chemical Romance ||my heart.bled||5:42 AM

Sunday, October 17 .....Im StiLL aWaKE.... Juz felt like putting Semaire Armstrongs ( a.k.a Anna Stern in " The OC" ) photo.... ...aint she beautiful??....sigh....juz gorgeous...im in love....maybe ill sleep now...so i can close my eyes & think of her...heheh... ||my heart.bled||2:56 AM

Friday, October 15 Actually this entry is for yesterday & the day before.oh n nt 4getting 2day.i was too tired to write it last night or in the morning when I woke up 4 sahur.haha.yay.it’s the fasting month already.1 month of me not being able to get close 2 julz.hehe.ill make it.did it last year.my will is strong.lol.yeah ryte.im home now,theres winnie the pooh on kids central.used 2 love watching it as a kid. But now im writing this & listening 2 music while the teles’s watchin me.lol.tele konon.skool was ok.finally got 2 do the filming 4 my final year project.stupid teacher,act like she noes so much wen in actual fact she doznt noe a ting.im workin 2day & itll b the 1st time breaking fast at work.2 bad julz aint workin 2day.kinda thirsty now.lol..control..control..controoooolllll….. - Wed 13 Oct It was an ok day till my baby & I went 2 mac 4 our luch.we had a 2 hour lunch due 2 a poly talk earlier.lol in the middle of eating I actually went 2 the toilet.cudnt stand it.had 2 throw the "big one".lol.we continued our lunch outside kfc near the fountain tingy at SP (Singapore Post).saw my ol fren sabariah.dats when it all started.julz ask if she cud read my old journal.the journal dat I wrote solely for nurul.i answered with the most stupidest ans.. "im not ready".it broke her apart.i mean I wud 2 if the person I was so in love with said dat 2 me.i regreted saying dat,I used the wrong word cuz it wasn’t wat I meant.its just dat I dun 1 her 2 feel uncomfortable or be reminded of my past wit nurul & it wasn’t an ugly past 1 till the coming end.y wud I 1 2 share wit julz 1 of my happy moments in life with another girl.its not right,its weird & heratbreaking.in life somethings arent meant 2 be known no matter how curious u r.i dun 1 2 dwell on the past.i want now.us.the present.im happy wit it & I bet I will 4 years 2 come.yes of course she was part of my greatest moments in life,heck she was the reason.but great moments move on just like great songs & great leaders.im more happy then all my past happy moments combined 2gether.dats how much u make me happy baby.my princes.my saviour. - Thurs 14 Oct No school but I had 2 go 2 school cuz I had 2 photo taking sessions.class & 4 SC.dun really care 4 the class 1.lol.Zur was very VERY sweet 2 bring yan,dillah,,hazman & I 2 mc at lucky plaze.she gave us a treat.it was a great feast.thank you zur.loye ya!I went 2 meet julz afterwards at city hall.itz been a long time since we sat at singapore river.so I decided 2 spend time wit her there dat day.it was a bit sucky at first wen she arrived cuz she was tired & sleepy & she had this sucky mood & wen she has this sucky mood,boy oh boy am I in 4 a treat.lol.but it was worth makin her smile & laugh.best present any1 can ever give me…….well maybe except 4 a gibson les paul guitar which costs 3000 smackeruz!!lol…..nahz.id still prefer juz lookin at her smile & laughter.we settled the problem bout the journal thing.im releived we did.hope she understands.ii nneva wanna lose her.we went 2 mc 2 get a drink but in the end we got ourselves the grilled burger thing.man im growing fat wit alll the consumption of mc nenel.lol.we sat back at sg river & there was this auntie dat sold flowers & tissue.she actuallly approached us 2 sell the tissue.oo I was wondering if she sold the roses cuz I actualy wantd 2 buy them 4 julz.i sat up & went 2 her but the roses were way too expensive & it din smell nice.ima very fussy person.so I went back 2 sit & she came back askin us 2 buy the roses.she reduced the price till 2 bucks.we din have change & after quite sometime "debatinng" over buying it or nt she gave us the rose & said 2 julz "lu baik lahh lu" man did I feel bad.guilty.its just not me 2 buy stuff from ppl.I dun easily trust ppl 2 well.julz dug in her bag some more 2 find loose change 2 give the auntie & she had some.but when we tried 2 find the auntie she disappeared.she vanished just like dat.i felt like I was in a movie where theres always a vanishing old lady.hehe.hehe.after dat we kissed & made out 4 awhile b4 going home. She made me laff so much in the train with her stupid behaviour.so cute.yet so "selenger".we reachd sengkang so fast.i din 1 the day 2 end. i had fun.always do when shes around me..wish it cud have gone on n on…. "times not with us,i used 2 call it my enemy.the night sky rushes, the mornings are long. But it was a matter of time when i met you, so i thank time 4 bringing us together. precious time we spent together. patient time i waited 4 you like that song Time will lead us, well slowly dance in that imaginary hall as others indulge in liquor" ||my heart.bled||2:44 PM

Tuesday, October 12 Im Home now,have been 4 the past 2 days.Listening to Dashboard Confessionals, Several Ways to Die Trying.Nice song.Been home ever since,was sick,or at least still am from Monday.Sucks being at home alone with no one 2 accompany u.Being home already sucks.Cant wait 2 get out of this hell hole.Hope 2 feel betta & start school 2mro.Miss being around frenz.Just started this blog,aint much but hopin 2 progress sooner or later.Really confusin 2 use.Now i really regret not listenin 2 Mr Peter when he was teachin html during Internet Fundamental classes.hehe.. "Tonight, they're burning the roads they built to lead us to the light.And blinding our hearts with their shining lies,while closing our caskets cold and tight. But I'm dying to live" - Several Ways to Die Trying by Dashboard Confessional ||my heart.bled||10:11 PM

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