Tuesday, October 25 Funeral for a Friend-Recovery Dear friends of this academy, ohh Romeo is bleeding to death To see a friend bleed to death what for Some kind of metaphor that I can't see? So, I'll drink until I see it This sky will make me sick So, I'll give up on you I'll give up on this This sky will make me sick I'll give up on this I'll give up on you Archers in your arches Raise your fingers for one last salute And bleed this skyline dry Your history is mine So you want to hold me up and bring me down Yes, you want to hold me up and break me down I don't care for your sweet scent Or, the way you want me more than I want you I don't care for your sweet scent Or, the way you want me more than I want you Archers in your arches Raise your fingers for one last salute And bleed this skyline dry Your history is mine Archers in your arches Raise your fingers for one last salute And bleed this skyline dry Your history is mine It's all mine It's all mine It's all mine Archers in your arches Raise your fingers for one last salute And bleed this skyline dry Your history is mine Archers in your arches Raise your fingers for one last salute And bleed this skyline dry Your history is mine ooh how i love this song.its so mellow & meaningfull.love FFAF!!!aarrggghh.i wish it cud be my death anthem.today gonna finally buka at home.never did since day 1 of puasa.kinda bored staying home but i do miss playing my guitar & watching the afternoon cartoon shows.cant wait to jam with JDV.juz learned Streetcar by FFAF & To Awake & Avenge the Dead by Thrice.rad songs.aidil wud definately be excited bout streetcar.nyeahehehehe.love my new gadget. oh this is so ol skool ||my heart.bled||4:23 PM

Sunday, October 23 juz gt back home frm werk.quite boring today.but good lah.better then having ppl asking u to take this,that & all sorts of shit.oh & there was this lady who asked me frm which animal did the fur frm one the jackets came from.& im like "HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW??!!!!DO I LOOK LIKE A POACHER OR A ZOOALIGIST OR SUMTING??!!!!"...in that short seconds that was between her question & my answer my imagination took me to great heights.hahha.i wish i cud have said that but being the kiss ass werkaholic that i am i told her id go & ask my supervisor.apparently its man made,it doesnt come frm any animal.so i assume in my head that its dyed pubic hair frm some silly fag or sumting.k.randomeness.oh & there was this oh so sweet girl that was shopping with her mom & brothers.shes like so sweet with her short hair & glasses.looked kinda yough though but very sweet indeed.i think the brothers kinda had the vibe that i was "checkin out" their little sister cuz they were looking at me all funny & stuff.....or they cud be gay & cudnt control their temptations to seduce me.hhahaha.im so vain with a capitol E for extra.k.randomness again.so happy.gez cuz my baby sent me home & i missed her company.so sweet of her to waste an hour with me in the bus juz to get down & get into her bus.LEH.oh & there was this damn disgusting dirty ol ah pek in the bus.he smelled awfull & kept spitting in the bus.he turned & talked to me sumting bout bus fares,conductors,20 dollars & getting of the bus & shit.hahaha.& i was like ah yah watever lah ahpek while julz was answering her phone. yeztaday was quite a drag.supposedly we were suppose to buka with the ol SC gang & mr lim.but apparently mr lim cudnt make it & the ol sc that came down was,well how shud i say this.but.OLD.hahaha.like the batch a yr b4 mine.haha.in the end we ended up going to geylang ourselves.julz had plans wit her ol sec school mates.im having mine next week.but no high hopes or watsoeva.cuz usually it never turns up well.my mac siao2 liao.gez my hard disk is damaged or sumting.hate to format my disk & loose all my precious mp3s.6 gigabyte of songs man.& thats filtered,erased alot of shit i dun listen to juz to make space on this darn comp.need to get a new comp.haiz.money.arrrghh.klah.better go eat snacks & watch tv now.play guitar later.woohhooo.dare devil on tv soon!!!coolness. aidil.irwin.me trying to act emo & shit.haha.photo taken infront of the toilet.how sweet. oh & wats up with kids taking picts over their head when they cant even see their own face in the pict.doesnt that defeat the purpose of having a picture taken?i mean like wat?dats emo?argh.pls lah."oh look at me so emo with my sad face that you cant see cuz im so dumb that i dun know how to take pictures & all u can see is the top of my head."stereotypical.i wonder if theres such a thing as monotypical or dholbytypical ke.k.randomness again. ||my heart.bled||11:30 PM

Tuesday, October 18 AAAAARRRRRHGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YOU FAT BIIITTTTTTCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK YYYYYYYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!! ||my heart.bled||2:37 PM

Monday, October 17 oh my gosh.my exam is 2mro & i have "studied".haha.i was suppose to study over the weekend but in fact i had a great & fun weekend!!hahaha.on firday, went to Ripples Pub near somerset 4 jerrells frend bday party.we went there to juz watch jerrell & ahmads band.the show rocked.ppor thing they only had 2 jamming sessions wit their new vocalist since their older one stood them up.but it was fun none the less.they played say-o-sin hahaha.& 94 hours!!!!it was rad.then went to PS at 10 to finaly break fast.hahaha.nasib julz tak puasa.it made me wana perform more.then on sat went to mr & miss with winz,julz & aidilz.hahaa.was suppose too meet winz at 2 but i woke up at 2.hahaha.met them at skool at 5++.the bloody thing started at 7.what made aidil & i furious was that there was this band that played & they kinda sucked.ok.they really sucked.& it shud have been us up there.it shud have been Juliets Dead Valentine.man that sucks.haiizzz.wat to do.bygones.it was ok.very grand but it was more like a fashion runway show then a competition.ika din win anything but the make up/hair artist did a fabulous job on her.she has wat it takes to be a model in sg.kuddos to her.slef-satisfaction to the mr & miss.really agree to them both that they shud hav won.dats good.then we went to geylang to buka.met ana & her frend there.we ate at the s11.sent julz to the bus stop.wished she cud have stayed but it was close to 12 & i din want her to miss her last bus.poor baby.we then headed off the suntec planning to watch a movie.but when we sat at the starbucks we changed our minds.haha.the dude gave us a on the house drink cuz he made aidils frapachino in the wrong cup size.k.dat sounds weird.cup size.haha.at 130am or so we bought stuff at marina squares 711 & headed off to the chillout stage at esplanade.betul nyer chillout seh kiterz.hahaha.lepaked there till 6++am.it was fun.wished had a camera.laffed our asses off.talking bout sponge bob lah.constaltions lah.UFOs lah.& even religion.hahah.weird.but it was fun.1st time winz ton.hahaha.wat to do.goin to NS on fri.hell be probably be carrying a guitar & not a rifle if theres ever a war in sg.haha.missed hangin round wit those guys.hope to do it again 1 day.got home at 7.slpt 4 afew hours & went jamming with melanie murder.da lamer tak jam da mcm tak tau.k.bukan mcm.memang tak tau.memphis will be laid to waste make me go ga ga!!haha.then werk.boy oh boy it was a heck of a weekend in the boring life of mine.ni pun baru alik frm meeting wit julz.went to buka at long john.tried the cajun chicken.very nice.then went 2 mcD at toa payoh to "study".hahaha.juz like wat im doing now.hahah.k2.better be goin off to study now.oh & got friday button!!kewl.cud kiss faeroz.& i say cud.hahaha.CUD.not wud.hahaha =p ||my heart.bled||11:06 PM

Thursday, October 13 YYYEEAAYYY!!!listening to all the rage by funeral for a friend now.juz gt back home frm skool.AND SKOOLS OUT!!!!!yeay!!!!but exam next wk.so i cant really celebrate yet.nyehehehe.had java theory test just now.ok lah.can do lah.werkin latr.2mro might,MIGHT be goin to this party faeroz asked me to go to.sat goin mr & ms wit aidil,ana,winz & hopefully julz.she might not be able to take leave.bummer.sun jamming with melanie murder.hopefull nothing last minute turns up & all can make it.da lamer tak jam dgn drg.& next week sessioning with new band with faeroz.play guitar.woohoo.but i suck.wat to do.whack ah.hahaha.must rest now.the BED!!!!!! ||my heart.bled||12:40 PM

Monday, October 10 its nt even a week of puasa & i feel like its been a month.nt gettin a new baju kurung this yr.waste money 4 wat.the ol 1 that julzs mom did 4 me is still perfectly fine.went jamming just now.was kinda boring to be playing the same ol song over again but it was sick that we pleyd above me in hyper speed.just like rufio!!!!hahaha.so proud.cant wait to jam the new songs.excited juz talking bout it.goin to break fast with the classmates 2mro.nt sure where.hope ill have fun.nt been myself lately 4 the past few months.exam is next week.& my brain cells are still filled with crap & more crap.subject of my life this week?maturity.becoming a "man".i dun know y sum ppl think dat bein in NS means yur a man.such stereotypes.i mean u just train.u dun actually go 4 war.to me you become a real man when yur faced with the biggest obstacle in your life & the decision that u make shall be the greatest sacrifice of all.THATS when u become a man.or when u get married.have responsibilities.n like fucking tons of it.putting on a uniform doznt make u a man.what actions u do makes u one.& i cant beleive that ppl are so serious nowadays.ive always..ALWAYS led the life of no matter how old you are.your never to old to be a kid at heart.cuz then life wud be darn boring.but ppl around me beg to differ.they want me to change.they want me to grow up.& its sad that the closest to me agree.my parents have been doing it since i was 10.but i dint care.i looked foward to life outside this hell hole which they call home.but now...i have nowhere to look foward to.i gez i have to change now.for better or for worse. why do my hands feel empty as i turn back to leave you behind the feeling of your comfort gone as i leave you back in time im sorry to abandone you but its what must be done for better or for worse for vows never stay forever a time to move on when pathways get smaller from all that you have learned shall perish in disaster one life now gone butterflies will committ suicide one life now awaken reborn in crimson night ||my heart.bled||12:58 AM

Wednesday, October 5 its the first day of puasa.man oh man its gonna be a long month.juz gt down the phone with julz.she sounds so energetic & hyper.im im all sleepy.i gt sabotaged!!!sumone planted my alarm later & lowered my tv volume!!!!sabotager!!!!well luckily julz called.ate kuah lemak ikan.was in such a rush sehz.haha.takut da ter "time" hehehe.well.goin back to slp now.c maint phase test later at 930.cant be late.....i hope. ||my heart.bled||5:33 AM

Tuesday, October 4 ill give up anything for you.even if it means giving up something ive never had in my life, or anything that i tried to live up to.to prove to you how much you mean to me.ill give up everything for you.everything ||my heart.bled||1:08 AM

my very first own multi effect still cant believe julz bought me a G2 ZOOM pedal sooooooo happy =) my swan princess turned tigger ali baba wearing a pooh helmet ||my heart.bled||12:47 AM

Sunday, October 2 its 4:16 & im still up.cant sleep.dun noe why.downloading dyna & no direction vids now frm gigvids.oh.juliana theory.you damage my ear drums with such delicate lyrics. The Closest Thing by The Juliana Theory You're the words that come out easy, And I am speechless at best. Your star it seems to shine above the rest. You're the face before the cameras, The smile i'd like to earn. The closest thing to perfect, In a hollywood to burn. You're the beauty that is deeper, Than eyes can merely see. The closest thing to perfect. But the farthest thing from me. I'd love to be, The shoulder that you cry on. I'd love to be, The friend you call when things are great. You're the dream that hasn't ended, And I'm still anxious for rest. Your words they seem to hang above my head. You're the bud before the flower, Unfurls into full bloom. Captivating beauty, But it maybe all too soon. You're the song that writes a story, But leaves a lot to read. The closest thing to perfect, But the farthest thing from me. I'd love to be, The shoulder that you cry on. I'd love to be, The friend you call when things are great. And like I really deserve a chance to, Sit across the table, And tell you that I think you're wonderful. And I think you're something special. I guess this is my only chance to, Say I wish I knew you, Because I'm sure you're wonderful, If I'd get to know you. ||my heart.bled||4:16 AM

OMG!!!!!!!this is the best belated birthday celebration & present ivve evr had in the 19 yrs of my life.hahaha.eventhough it was shortlived.went out to meet julz at oorchard at 7.she looked so hot in the mango top i bought.hope she loves it.hhaha.banyak nyer kener bayar bender kat seoul garden.haha.she surprised me.i was so shocked when i found out that we were eating there.haha.it was my first time.it was so kewl seh!!its a DIY restaurant/buffet thingy.haha.awesome.so jakun sehz.haha.we ate till our stomachs cud literally explode.haha.so fuuunnnnnn.loved it.& then it was time for my presie.haha.she gave me this small gift which i tot was a ring or a bracelet.& when i opened it up it was batteries.& then she took out this HUGE box that was wrapped in newspaper out her bag.banyak dier punyer bawak alik baju nak cuci.hahahaha.there were so many layers of wrapping.the suspennse was killing me.i was gentle at first but i cudnt wait so i juz tore, tore & tore.hahaha.& omg!!!!there it was.right infront of my eyes.A ZOOM G2 GUITAR EFFECT PEDAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!how sick is that.its by far THE most expensive & kewlest & sickest birthday presie ive ever had.the converse shoe that julz gt 4 my bday last yr is second.KKKEERRRAAAYZZYZZYY SIALL!!!!!!!hahaha.not only did i so wantd my own effect pedal.i gt the kewlest & nicest one around.3rd generatiion dude!!!!!hahaa.im very2 grateful to my swan princess.she noes how to spoil me so much.love being spoiled by her.AAAARRRRGGHHH!!!!!! still cant beleive it seh!!!!!!!best seh.ive yet 2 try it.gonna call julz in awhile later.she has the SMRT challenge 2mro.dun want her 2 slp too late.well after the whole ordeal we went 2 taka toy department & i forced her to take a picture of her wearing this tigger & winnie the pooh cap thingy.she looked so darn kiut in it.hahahaha.mcm nak tendang dier jer.EEEEEEEEEE!!!!geram!!!!hahaha.then went 2 sit at espla 4 awhile & she took 56 wit me to TP & took the 2nd last bus back to sengkang.AAARRGGHHH.im so happy.VERY HAPPY!!!!!!hhahaha.cant wait 2 try it.no more manans' 606 pedal 4 me anymore.can give it back 2 aidil.muahahaha.im so happy.did i say that im happy?well i am.very. I love you. No matter what mood you're in I'll try my best to make you smile, even for awhile I'll fight the temptation to loose. i'll never give in Even if it means, sometimes letting you win Don't be sorry for you're behaviour 'Cause all i care is having you beside me Please don't regret what you say my sweetest dear 'Cause i just love the words that come from your lips Feelings will come & go So close your eyes & take a breather & let all the good things flow so you'll feel much better Your eyes tell a thouand stories With the pages of content in your face But i'll be here with you all the way To be with you no matter where your mood sways i still cant believe she got me a G2 ZOOM effect pedal =) ||my heart.bled||12:20 AM

Saturday, October 1 hahahaha.zan?harry potter?who wud have gezzed.harry potek ader ah.hahaha.but man.i wud so lurve to be harry potter just to be in the company of that hot witch beside me.hehehehe.she so hot.& i din notice her only till the photo was developed for us by the friendly nokia peeps.but id still rather go for a hot slenger cute rabbit.hehehe.just like the one on my right.hehehe ||my heart.bled||2:34 PM

why do NS guys like to talk about their boring daily NS lives.even when theyre out of camp??i mean by all means talk all u want bout it in camp but i wonder why do they talk bout it outside when they go there evry single day for 2 yrs & they do what other NS guys do & stil wanna talk bout it outside camp.i mean if it were me ill be more then glad to not talk bout NS life outside cuz ill b sick of it.im sick of hearing it.always have been.hate it when ppl around me talk bout NS lah,future lah, marriage lah,career lah,religion lah..im not that sorta guy.i hate talking & thinking about the future.im not a future guy.past?depends.but definately the present.cuz u live today.u dun noe if u will 2mro.so y think of wat will happen later wen u dun noe where ull be?i noe its gd to plan ahead.but wat if u wun even be alive the next day?so dun bother.itll juz stress you out.live life to the fullest today cuz u dun noe what 2mro brings.appreciate the time NOW instead of later. went out wit aidil,went 2 tamp to find crepes but the shop might be under renovation or its gone 4 gd.saw julz b4 she went 2 werk & we headed off to orchard 2 meet winz.went 2 far east.sat at lucky mcD & met man & ana at city hall in the late evening.that was when they started 2 have the "guy" conversations bout NS while eating at BK.i just cudnt listen.hate talking,listening bout the future.ii totally become sumone else wen that happens..sigh.then went 2 tamp 2 pick up julz.met hazman & nizam.& had supper at the usual place with julz.feeling tired now.2mro in the wee hours of the morning i have 2 go 2 skool to get an example of the DBF pproject.goin home 2 change & rest then meetin julz 2 celebrate my belated bday after that.cant wait.. because you live life today & will never know if you will tommorrow ||my heart.bled||1:13 AM

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