my conciliatory to fallacy

my diffident.self

name- does it matter.honestly?
year- 29091986
location- land of broken hearts.
& shattered souls
music- punk rock.hardcore.emo.metalcore.
emocore.pop.jazz.oldies like Ritchie Valens
contact- emokills187@hotmail.com
screenname- emokills

"im just a kid sacrifices made will i get anything out from it?maybe one fine day.it's all bottled up inside it's been awhile.
even as the world sharpens beneath me i'll just pretend & smile.but it doesn't matter cuz i won't been missed i'll just leave a letter"

memory.lane
a day@CreativeCenter
date.movie
friday.night fever
cycling
new year.morning
new year05/06
christmas05'
LaoPaSat
melaniemurders2nd gig.the.discordant project
2yr.anniversary
my babys.birthday
suntec.summit2
suntec.summit
breaking fast.ite-mp
julz being....errr...julz <3
ripples pub.mr&miss
my happiest.& only 19th birthday
nokia.starlight cinema
ite simei.classmates
100905
memories of you.will never.fade away.
melanie murders first.gig
people.in my life
bay beats o4'

setting my wings.ablaze

Saturday, February 12

Just finished learning the song "My Stories, Your Alibis" by Matchbook Romance.fuck man.its one emo song.i love it man.it gives me the goosebumps when I listen 2 that awsome song.its so emo.it so.undescribable.it just makes my hair stand up man. "LIE TO ME!!give me something worth living for!tell me a reason worth fighting for!give me anything!anything to keep me breathing."man listening it makes me bleed man.shit ass.I LOVE THIS SONG!!well.the shitest thing happened b4 going in2 werk.i used the stupid fucking AXS machine 2 pay my bill.i dint edit the amount n I stole 250 from my bank acc.250!!!!!fuck siah.dats alota cash man.i was so lking forward 2 use 2 leasure use this month.now I cant help my mom pay the home phone bills,cant give my mom her money,cant buy the disney on ice tixx 4 julz.cant celebrate valentines day.fuck siak.y me?y always me?what doz god have against me?wat did I ever do 2 him in the past?y?what?I believed in him.but shit always happened 2 me.i lost my faith.n now it stil happens.my life will never be good will it.its like I have a cursed life of a boy who broke a thousand mirrors.n now joe is nt werking.he has 2 get a job once they get back frm m’sia.what if he doznt get a job?ill have 2 stop skooling n werk more so I can support my family.im just a kid n I already feel the weight of adulthood.family.im just a kid siak.i din even get 2 enjoy childhood.n now this.just wen things seem almost ok.i was never born a kid.i was born a curse.shit siak.writing this im crying siak.its unfair.life is nt fair.its never been the fairest 2 me.i wanna be a kid again.i wanna grow young.y me..y…..

Matchbook Romance - My Stories, Your Alibis
"speak to me
tell me something so typical
a lullaby or something miserable
that will keep me up at night

cross out my eyes
i know you planned it
you know i love you
and i can't stand it
we just lost control
(we just lost control)

lie to me
give me something worth living for
tell me a reason worth fighting for
give me anything, anything to keep me breathing
lie to me
give me something worth living for
tell me a reason worth fighting for
give me anything, anything to keep me breathing

go lie to me
tell me stories so beautiful
an epic of something so terrible
that it makes me weep

cross out these days
on the calendar
it hurts me so much
and im not quite sure
i care anymore
(i care anymore)

lie to me
give me something worth living for
tell me a reason worth fighting for
give me anything, anything to keep me breathing
lie to me
give me something worth living for
tell me a reason worth dying for
give me anything, anything to keep me breathing"

||my heart.bled||3:01 AM

Wednesday, February 9
man.music nation at RP was kewl.went with weiny n frends.1st time meeting her.haha.shes a fun dude.nad gt in2 alota trouble.haha.tell latr ah.im rushing off 2 go 2 adils house.sessioning new songs 2day.cant wait.haha.n its chinese new yr.cong xi fa cai.

i write because of me & YOU,not BECAUSE of u,not FOR u.
YOU are my frend dat i can share things with,dat i can express my feelings 2.
YOU are my frend that knows me inside out because YOU are me.
Ony i know what i mean in YOU.Only i understand.Only i can feel.
u wouldnt understand.but YOU do.
YOU are me.I am YOU.

||my heart.bled||1:31 PM

Tuesday, February 1
i so wanna change my blog name.sincerely-ze.haha.what was i thinking.its so sissy.its so gay.haha.hmmm.need 2 think of a nicer name.hmmmm.maybe "in thisblogiswhereiwritemyinnermostfeelingsthatidunsharethatmakesmebleednsufferallmylife.blogspot.com".nahz.too long.haha.chatted with weiny just now.just found out shes my neighbour.haha.lorong 7 siak.this werld is small.plus shes 1 talented sick dudet.haha.cheers 2 her.hmmm.name.hmmmmmmm.........

||my heart.bled||11:58 PM