my diffident.self

name- does it matter.honestly?
year- 29091986
location- land of broken hearts.
& shattered souls
music- punk rock.hardcore.emo.metalcore.
emocore.pop.jazz.oldies like Ritchie Valens
contact- emokills187@hotmail.com
screenname- emokills

"im just a kid sacrifices made will i get anything out from it?maybe one fine day.it's all bottled up inside it's been awhile.
even as the world sharpens beneath me i'll just pretend & smile.but it doesn't matter cuz i won't been missed i'll just leave a letter"



memory.lane
a day@CreativeCenter
date.movie
friday.night fever
cycling
new year.morning
new year05/06
christmas05'
LaoPaSat
melaniemurders2nd gig.the.discordant project
2yr.anniversary
my babys.birthday
suntec.summit2
suntec.summit
breaking fast.ite-mp
julz being....errr...julz <3
ripples pub.mr&miss
my happiest.& only 19th birthday
nokia.starlight cinema
ite simei.classmates
100905
memories of you.will never.fade away.
melanie murders first.gig
people.in my life
bay beats o4'

setting my wings.ablaze



Friday, February 24

i gez ill neva sum up to anyone.ill neva live up to even standard expectations.i can go as high as a mountain.but ill always be at the bottom.id give anything to repent myself.but i gez im just afraid that even after death i would never be forgiven.let live or let die.ill burn myslef with fire tonight.hopefully a time will come, that will clear the ashes of reminisces.

||my heart.bled||1:24 AM

Wednesday, February 22

ive been at home since tuesday.sat was the gig.it sucked except for the last song.we tore the walls down with memphis will be laid to waste.joanna cried cuz she din press the rec button on the vidcam.no biggie actually.poor girl.monday was the isetan dinner and dance.it was kewl.although i did think the hospitality crew at suntec could have been more nicer.& i didnt know that isetan has quite a few hot girls.hahaha.julz was so keeping an eye at me when i was checking out the girls from scotts.haha.the MC was good.very funny but he spoke alota chinese which was kinda irritating at a certain point.there was alcohol & to be honest it was very tempting.free flow lagi siak.but i held myself back & im kinda proud of myself 4 dat.the concert ended at 11 or so.then it was dancing all the way till god knows what time.haha & the weirdest thing was that julz was dancing.yep.she was dancing & gosh she looked so freaking hot sial.haha.kak yaya looked like she was having fun.pei chin so totally rocks the dance floor.shes one hell of a good dancer.i just sat there with aden & i was totally freaked out when joanne was trying to persuade me to dance & she was like gonna grind me.i could so feel my face turning pink.in the end i thought what the hell.it be a waste not to since its not a very normal occasion.& I GOT TO GRIND JULZ!!!!hahaha.front & back.side to side.haha.dat was so sexy.it was so turning me on.haha.like whatever zan.we went off at 1.sent julz home.lepaked with her till 230am.then didnt go school the next day.malas ah.haha.& today im sick.just great.doc says i got the minor case of Tonsillitis.if i have anymore of this id have to have them remove.man that will be very costly.i hope it wont go to that serious.but 2 days MC.yeay!!hhaaha.

||my heart.bled||8:13 PM

Thursday, February 9

im bored.i feel hot.dehydrated.grammy is on.had quite a long weekend.ate at bedemer in the middle of the night with aidil,ana,aden & julz.fun.heh.3 A's, a J & a Z.k.lame.didnt know isetan had so much politics.finaly had the valentines banner up.like it very much.got stepped over the head just now at skool.well i actualy do evryday.but settled it.pay not in for this month.whichh totaly sucks.i dun know y im talking in short sentences.so robotic.tommorrow first guitar lesson.sat jammin wit both bands.jerrell gonna session for JDV.lking foward to dat.peace no war.


discordant project2 coming.not prepared.wat the hell.

||my heart.bled||10:29 PM

Thursday, February 2

( i had no idea what my first werds were going to be.to be honest ;p )
chinese new year just drifted by.wat a nice break frm it all.skool.werk.gonna suffer for the next 2 months or so.no break no hols no nothing then exam.damn it.yet im still slacking my ass off at skool.wat a shocker.hmm.let me see wat i did this month..ponder..ponder..
went cycling with julz for the first time at east coast.it was nice.i do know how to ride the bike ok!! contrary to what others might say.bluerk!!but i did fall & as what julz say i must admit macam "nangka busuk".hehe.but fun it was indeed.hmmm.what else..ponder..ponder..
oh melanie murder had a sucky performane at ngee ann.gary quit due to sum shit but i knew it was gonna happen.just din expect it wud be this quick.weve gt hafiz frm a vacant affair to session for us.bloody good & funny lad.just got back from watching fun with DICK & jane with julz.hilarious indeed.of course its always never a dull movie with jim carrey in it.oh & of all of the people in the world i had to bump to just now at ps.shamila.yes.shamila.the girl i was once soo goo goo ga ga over when i was also dating julz before we were in a relationship.yep the hot bishan nurse that i got to know from hazri (whom i used to be so close with.but i gez things move on).yep.the girl that kissed me on the lips on our very first date.man she used to look so hot but so the minah now.dat girl had major issues.she shud go & see a shrink bout it.heh.not to sound rude but i like my girls sane.not that julz is.hehe.shes one hell of a joker & weirdo &...ntahlah.can describe her in so many funky ways.haha.had so much fun with her just now.she got my tickle bones all kerazy & shit.well im gonna watch american dad & father of the pride after this.gonna have my first guitar lesson at skool 2mro.then gonna help P&C with the valentines banner tommorrow (oh yah i got into my skools student council.kental kan??!!) then jamming at one of the new studios that the no direction guitarists just opened.update ya latr.picts up.peace


so?i dun do well in pressure okey.& the lady at the back seems like shes ready to hurl


"akibat nangka busuk yang sudah jatuh"


||my heart.bled||11:38 PM

my vestige.journey



scar.your words



dreaming.a reality

guitar effects pedal
les paul guitar
a PC
< kappa canvas shoe
light coloured jeans/pants
< new bangle/bracelet
ZARA sweater
TOPMAN shirt
digital camera

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