Tuesday, September 27 man it sucks not bein able to have my own bike let alone know how 2 ride one.my dad condems me frm taking bike lessons & it sucks.i want a vespa!!!a gt or even an et wud be fine with me.& it shud be surf green.hmmm.maybe sum1 will buy that 4 me 4 my birthday.hahaha.dream on zan.no one is willing to go through that for YOU!!!NO ONE!!!but its also kinda reassuring that i cant takke lessons cuz too be honest i dun trust myself on the road.i dun care if i got hit in an accident or anything but i wud kill myself if julz was riding at the back with me & it happened.it doznt matter who or if itz me but if i was the cause for julz to be hurt id rather not.im willing to nt take lessons just for her safety.for her to be safe & sound & unscratched or bruised.maybe perhaps by me can lah.hahahaha.always giving her bruises.haha.poor thing.what too do.such delicate soft silky skin thats to die for....ahhhh....(sigh of happiness).... ||my heart.bled||4:34 PM

Monday, September 26 jealousy overcomes me.its weird when sumtimes u dun give a fuck & sumtimes u do.haiz..cant beleive im close to the "ties".a yr plus more & i can say goodbye to single digits of life.dun noe y i feel so moody.maybe cuz of skool.arrrrggghhhhh.it sucks 2 have no life with real 'friends' in it.yeah im jealous.so wat?1 day ill die becuz of it.i get drained knowing u have fun doing things with others that u usualy reject when i try 2 think of sumthing different.but its ok.i blame myself for not bein the "in" thing... jealousy kills me rapidly... ||my heart.bled||10:32 PM

Sunday, September 25 boy oh boy im sleepy.nt 2 sure why.anw yez went out with julz to the Nokia Starlight Cinema thing at the padang.hehe.we got tix frm her sis.luckily she wasnt able to go.it was so kewl.it was so cute & romantic.a picnic plus movie with the stars up in the sky & we cud even see venus & jupiter.we knew it was a planet cuz it wasnt blinking.but nt sure if it was indeed venus & jupiter according to the djs of power98 jeremy & sebastian.well it was so sweet.eventhough the movie was harry ppotter & i HATE harry potter.but i hate to admit this, the movie was actually quite intresting.hhaha.julz wud be so in my face like "i TOOOOOLLLDDDD u sooooo" ryte now.haha.they played 2 movies yez.the chamber of secrets & the prisoner of azkkerban or sumting like that.haha.sadly we only stayed 4 the 1st movie =( but still it was a very kewl ting to do with julz.cant wait 4 it again.& my dedication gt played on the big inflatable screen!!!!how kewl is that.we were in the movies!!!!!hahaha.it was so kewl.cuz when we arrived there we were asked to take pictures with the characters of harry potter & a video will be made so i can dedicate sumting to my jjulz.so nerve wrecking.hahaha.IM A MOVIE STAR!!!!!haha.it was worth skipping the gig at beat merchants for a splendid picnic in the evening with julz under the stars.k i just noticed ive been saying alota kewls.hahah.thats sick.i miss using the werd sick.blargh.got so mny tests & studying to do 4 the exam.damn im in big do do.oh & i cant wait to watch corpse bride.it looks so sick. under the stars ill wait day dreaming about how itll be to determine fate in llife with you & me ill ride the milky ways just to travel light years as the constalations show your face well dance the nights in grace ill be the burnt out star shining shamelessly beside you as you glow ever so bright but never looking down on me to shine the nights with you where further doesnt seems forever hoping to take me in your presence where one day well both shine together missing those days with her in ite mp ||my heart.bled||11:28 AM

Tuesday, September 20 Shadow Demon - A demon that exist in darkness you remain hidden to all those around you and lurk in the shadows in darkness you exist you are fear you are darkness What kind of demon would you be brought to you by Quizilla THE RAMONES BEST DAMN ROCK BAND ALIVE (UMM... I MEAN DEAD) WHICH PUNK ROCK BAND ARE YOU? brought to you by Quizilla ||my heart.bled||4:45 PM

Monday, September 19 hey.been quite sum time since ive made an entry.been so busyy this past few days cuz of my sisters wedding ceremony.it was kewl.not big but it was kewl.julz came & it was soo akward 4 her.but im so bloody damn proud that she came.haaaaiizzzz..im so in love with her...(sigh of relief)...juz gt back frm lepaking with her at toa payoh.she came too pick me up frm skool.so sweet of her.she looked hot in the mango top i bought 4 her.sexy mamasita!!haha.well ive made an error of major proportions!!!!hhaaha.the bleds new album is Found In The Flood, not finding the flood.hahaha.stupid me.& it rocks.literally.more singing then screaming but james still puts on a great show.still love his voice.so kewl.lurv tims voice from as i lay dying too.farking animal that guy.screaming like a dinosaur!!haha.but if u had me to choose id go 4 the bled & caliban.awesome rockers. "Maybe you could finally be the one who reaches in a saves me from the flood. Collapse. this is out last chance. there's no time for relapse. Just listen for the flood. If not us, can i just save you?" -My Assassin from The Bled ||my heart.bled||11:06 PM

Tuesday, September 13 muahahaha... Your French Name is: Cheney Soullier What's Your French Name? ||my heart.bled||4:39 PM

Sunday, September 11 im in love.i mean i was in love but ive fallen in love again.i gez dats the way to explain it.ah.i dun noe how 2 describe it.haha.just gt back home.haha.today was magical.it was perfect.but most importantly i was with her.the day cudnt have been any better.lets start frm the begining.i met julz at orchard at 3+ i gez.& when i saw her it was llike the first time i laid eyes on her.she was so gorgeous in her dress.she looked so beautiful.she looked so speechless.so perfect.she was the angel above me in my eyes.so tunning.i cudnt stop complimenting her cuz i cudnt stop melting just by walking beside her.she made me all fuzzy like an ol discman that needs repairs.we ate at swensons.our first time eating there together.been planning 4 so long.so full seh.it was nice.the mood was so right.ahhhh.im all smilly juz thinkin bout it again.she looked so pretty when the sun shone on her.her cheeks glowed more radiantly with such joy,beauty.i felt like a member of the carebears everytime i set my eyes on her.haha. we then proceeded to esplanade.sat for awhile to releive our stomaches & wathched typewriter play 3 songs or so & went to "chocolate bar" for our desert.first time there.it was kewl.it felt right & special especially with her.i tried the "suckao" & julz ate the croissont thing & we shared a vanilla ice cream with milk chocolate.were gonna go there again 1 day 2 try other stuff.it looked very tempting.we'll be back bald man!!haha.after filling our already full stomaches with more such delicate delights we went to where the lights,sky & atmosphere is spelled with a capitol J & Z.but this time we sat facing the side of fullerton where the restaurant was.it was a breezy night.& the lights of the fullerton was as bright as our spirits.we sat,lepaked & even took a nap.hahaha.specificly me till 1230 or so & went 2 Mac to buy supper/midnight snacks.hahaha.boy oh boy did we eat alot 2day.haha then the momment of truth foor mme came as i finally played & sang julzs' song.FINALLY.haha.after hard werk on it.it din come out right for thhe first 2 times.haha.but i sorta got it on the third.sheesh.like it was not nervous enuff playing infront oh her but evrytime i looked into her eyes i shook more & my nervousness got to overdrive.haha.but it was great to see the smile on her face & that she almost cried.it was sweet.she's sweet.man im so in love.i hope she likes the song.it took alota courage for me to do what i had to.haha.zan singing.haha.never get ah.once in a lifetime opportunity.haha.but most importantly im glad that she took me back into her life cuz my life wud be nothing without her.im so happy.no werds can describe how i feel & how perfect today was.i wana grow old with you my swan princess.i wana have a house with you.have kids, grandchildren & our grandchildrens grandchildren.hahahaha.i know i wunt regret living life with her in it to be by my side.thats the longest weve been out b4.got the taxi at 3 i think.stupid standard chattered thing made all the rooads close so we had to walk quite abit.but it was worth it ;) i cant wait to live life with her.to experience & involve her in my lifes journey in as many things as possible.ive met the one...."ill pity the woman who marries me that isnt you.cuz even though ill marry her you'll always forever be in my heart.a permanent part of it.cuz i'll never love someone else the way i love you." trust our love my dear and i'll see you here next year ||my heart.bled||4:20 AM

im in love.i mean i was in love but ive fallen in love again.i gez dats the way to explain it.ah.i dun noe how 2 describe it.haha.just gt back home.haha.today was magical.it was perfect.sorta.but most importantly i was with her.the day cudnt have been any better.lets start frm the begining.i met julz at orchard at 3+ i gez.& when i saw her it was llike the first time i laid eyes on her.she was so gorgeous in her dress.she looked so beautiful.she looked so speechless.so perfect.she was the angel above me in my eyes.so tunning.i cudnt stop complimenting her cuz i cudnt stop melting just by walking beside her.she made me all fuzzy like an ol discman that needs repairs.we ate at swensons.our first time eating there together.been planning 4 so long.so full seh.it was nice.the mood was so right.ahhhh.im all smilly juz thinkin bout it again.she looked so pretty when the sun shone on her.her cheeks glowed more radiantly with such joy,beauty.i felt like a member of the carebears everytime i set my eyes on her.haha. we then proceeded to esplanade.sat for awhile to releive our stomaches & wathched typewriter play 3 songs or so & went to "chocolate bar" for our desert.first time there.it was kewl.it felt right & special especially with her.i tried the "suckao" & julz ate the croissont thing & we shared a vanilla ice cream with milk chocolate.were gonna go there again 1 day 2 try other stuff.it looked very tempting.we'll be back bald man!!haha.after filling our already full stomaches with more such delicate delights we went to where the lights,sky & atmosphere is spelled with a capitol J & Z.but this time we sat facing the side of fullerton where the restaurant was.it was a breezy night.& the lights of the fullerton was as bright as our spirits.we sat,lepaked & even took a nap.hahaha.specificly me till 1230 or so & went 2 Mac to buy supper/midnight snacks.hahaha.boy oh boy did we eat alot 2day.haha then the momment of truth foor mme came as i finally played & sang julzs' song.FINALLY.haha.after hard werk on it.it din come out right for thhe first 2 times.haha.but i sorta got it on the third.sheesh.like it was not nervous enuff playing infront oh her but evrytime i looked into her eyes i shook more & my nervousness got to overdrive.haha.but it was great to see the smile on her face & that she almost cried.it was sweet.she's sweet.man im so in love.i hope she likes the song.it took alota courage for me to do what i had to.haha.zan singing.haha.never get ah.once in a lifetime opportunity.haha.but most importantly im glad that she took me back into her life cuz my life wud be nothing without her.im so happy.no werds can describe how i feel & how perfect today was.i wana grow old with you my swan princess.i wana have a house with you.have kids, grandchildren & our grandchildrens grandchildren.hahahaha.i know i wunt regret living life with her in it to be by my side.thats the longest weve been out b4.got the taxi at 3 i think.stupid standard chattered thing made all the rooads close so we had to walk quite abit.but it was worth it ;) i cant wait to live life with her.to experience & involve her in my lifes journey in as many things as possible.ive met the one...."ill pity the woman who marries me that isnt you.cuz even though ill marry her you'll always forever be in my heart.a permanent part of it.cuz i'll never love someone else the way i love you." trust our love my dear and i'll see you here next year ||my heart.bled||4:20 AM

Saturday, September 10 LUCY IN THE LOO ROCKS MY HEART OUT just got backk frm lepaking with irwinz.met him at somerst to give his resignation letter at robinsons.haha.lucky dude goin 2 ns soon.gd luck to him.went to eat at this store near centerpoint.the makcik very funny.she wasnt kidding.her chicken was damn bloody hot.my stomachs so wanting to bombs away ryte now.muahaha.saw asima at werkplace just now.she was so nice to us wanting to blanja us.next time ah.kesian plak pakai duit dier sehz.potong gaji.but she looked great.long time never see her.getting more prettier.glad shes happy in life now with love =) bumped into serine & a hot friend of hers just now.went to see sum rap thing at the esplanade library for awhile.haha.we like stayed 4 only 20 mins.hhahaha.but worth going down cuz there was a gig at the chillout stage.power pop weekend.the marilyns & lucy in the loo played.i hearts LITL sooooooo much.the vocalist/guitarist/cute/sweet/songwritter/heart melter just blew me away.the way she sang & brought herself on stage was like.........so speechless.her voice oh so.......speechless.hahaha.i melted like frostings on a hot dessert morning watching her sing.you could see the emotions she put out while she's singing.it was so sincere.a sweet girl playing the guitars & a voice thats oh so sweet.what more cud 1 ask 4.haha.k enuff bout hana.haha.i noe her name cuz i bought their ep.5 bucks!!!wasted if i din get it.saw on their website that theyre left with only 50 copies left.oh n hana has the same freaking birthday as me!!!!!!!how kewlness is that!!!k im starting to sound like a phsyco.muahahah.i dun care.i like her!!!hahaha.their cd is so nice.its full of nice-ness.hahaha.so wanted 2 get her autograph but too shy to ask lah.hehehe.maybe next time.id love to catch them at KL 1 day.ahhhhh....i feel soo power pop today.hahaha... "So stop....You should stand still for a moment with me, And stop....Take a look around and you'll see" ||my heart.bled||12:22 AM

Friday, September 9 great.dbf test postponed.again.shud have talked 2 julz longer yez.hehe.anw sumtimes things dun appear to happen the way u want it or how its uppose to be.well going out with irwin latr.lepaks.i wanna go survey sum stuff.can wait for 2mro!!so excited!! my words aren't for your entertainement but for my hearts fulfilment ||my heart.bled||9:45 AM

Wednesday, September 7 yeay.im happy with my new blog skin.its so much more neater.ahh.finally.i feel at ease 4 my blog.hehe.can stop searching 4 a better blogskin.k.have c maint test 2mro.& here i am typing this.sheesh.haha.grrrrrr...stomach ache lah.muz go shitty shit now.hehe.msging julz at the smae time.hehe.grrrrr...(stomach growling)... ||my heart.bled||1:35 AM

Tuesday, September 6 hmm.i dunnoe what to say bout this past few days.been very kerazy i gez.haha.oh well.anw im having second tots bout "wasting myself".now that ive gotten closer back to her it seems like life is way much more colourfull & better.gosh its amazing.anw she was sick yeztaday.poor thing.she looked so sick & kiut.missed those times so badly.very much looking foward to this sat.not the morning though but later that day.i know that im so gonna hav a blast with julz.cant wait.nothings been on my mind but this sat.damn.2mro werk.nvm.pay in 2mro.cant wait 2 get my piercing.been wanting it so long. OH & FEED THE FLOOD BY THE BLED MUST GET!! ||my heart.bled||8:47 PM

Saturday, September 3 damn.jamming canceled.was so looking fowrd to it.but wat the hell.seven collar t-shirt playing today & im nt goin.so damn broke.damn.my squared circle opening 4 them.& lunarin too.haiz.nvm.changed my skin cuz the old one had too many problems.it was so fucked up.hate this one.but wat the heck.just finished learning how to play The Shooting Star That Destroyed Us All by A Static Lullaby.cant wait 4 pay.must buy the bleds new album.sure rocks.another boring sat.well i gez ill go watch tapes.long overdue of movies to watch. "Now's it time Now's it time The more I try The more I lose But today Will you remember me ? But today Will you remember me ? But today Your eyes Your eyes They shine Your eyes " ||my heart.bled||12:36 PM

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