Saturday, November 6 "Blink 182 - Story Of A Lonely Guy" Push it out, fake a smile, Avert disaster, just in time I need a drink, cause in a while Worthless answer from friends of mine It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore Girls posess me, but they're never mine I made my entrance, avoided hazards Checked my engine, I fell behind I fell behind She makes me feel like it's raining outside And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time Lost the words, lost the nerve, lost the girl, left the line I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine So read my book with a boring ending A short story of a lonely guy I fell behind She makes me feel like it's raining outside And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy ||my heart.bled||1:30 AM

Thursday, November 4 Must it b always like this.y must ppl always take advantage of me.y do they fuck me like im a motherfuckin whore.do i look DAT pathetic?do i seem so timid?do i let ppl step onto my head dat they think they can do it over n over again?Im sick of it.hav been thru all this years.screw evrythin dats all pink,yellow,orange flowery n shit.screw anythin dats beautiful.screw this shit hell hole.SCREW LIFE!! "Relient K - More Than Useless" I feel like, I would like to be somewhere else doing something that matters not I lay here, or I sit here my mind walks away and my thoughts are together Whats the purpose, it feels worthless so I'm haunted by the lost of my value I can't find it, not in the least bit and I'm just scared,, scared that I'll fail you And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all and sometimes, I wonder why I'm even here at all but then you assure me I'm a little more than useless when I think that I can't do this you promise me that I'll get through this and do something right do something right for once So I say if I can do something significant I'll opt to leave most opportunities wasted ain't nothing trival, to let me give you will measure up to what might have replaced it to Ray Brook, not day break respectful to days that were empty and now gone and knock back, the regret a road to get me to improve in the long run And sometimes I think that I'm not any good at all sometimes, I wonder why I'm even here at all but then you assure me I'm a little more than useless when I think that I can't do this you promise me that I'll get through this and do something right do something right for once I’m a little more than useless and never knew I knew this its gonna the day, gonna be the day that I will do something right do something right for once. I know this, I know this weak is the symbol of how I use my time resented, I spent it convincing myself the worlds doing just fine without me!! I’m doing anything with any consequence without me!! showing anytime with never making sense of my time, its my life and my right to use it like I should like he would, for the good of everything that I would ever know I'm a little more than useless when I think that I can't do this you promise me that I'll get through this and do something right do something right for once ||my heart.bled||5:12 PM

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